The first few days have really been all about just getting used to soldier life, I am posting from our (Sotilaskoti) soldiers home right now, its the first hour of actual free time we have received in the past 4 days.
Monday was probably the least exciting and more uncomfortable day for everyone in my company, it was really just settling in. No one knew each other and the whole experience just felt surreal. Tuesday involved more marching around and lectures. Yeah we have a lot of lectures here. On Wednesday we had around 6 hours straight of lectures. Thursday we got our weapon, and did drills with it, and Friday more gun drills and the running test which i did a satisfactory job on.
Orders often don”t make any sense but they are really not supposed to you just need to follow them. For example, while it was raining outside we were not told to bring rain coats, but when the rain stopped we were ordered to put on our raincoats. As time went by i came to realize that they really control all of our time with orders, one really does”nt have to think much just do, so i suppose most people had theirs brains off for the most part. As for me everyday i strive to further understand the language the orders are given it.
That a whole other issue the language my Finnish is decent and i often communicate with a stutter. Its strange though, when i relax I communicate really well but when i stress out and the undersergent is shouting some orders i often freeze up and the words come out in short bursts. Among my fellow conscripts its fun to talk, despite the semi language barrier humor still seeps through easily. Our undersergent called us pokemon today, and was talking with the other undersergents about training pokemon, at lunch we asked each other which pokemon we were. A lot of the time there are words i dont understand, but with a bit of logic and brain work i can figure out what words mean, its easier than it sounds since most of the time its easy to tell if people are talking about serious stuff or if they are talking about farts.
I really only started to really get to know people well on Thursday, it was then after those orderly marches and long standing that i started to feel a sense of camaraderie. They say the army takes away your individuality but the truth is when everyone is in uniform with the same haircut you notice things you otherwise would not, you notice the nuances in peoples faces the sound of their voices, and the subtle differences that make an individual. The undersergents and lectures also teach us or reminds us of a lot of basic things such as looking into peoples eyes when you speak and speaking loudly and clearly but not shouting, social courage. There is a real positive atmosphere in the air and on Thursday i definitely felt it i was learning how to say a lot of new things and i felt like i was growing it was great.
I would be lying if i said everything is going peachy everyone here has something to complain about, I think everyone was a bit annoyed today having to wake up and go out and march in the rain. and this blog would be totally full if i listed everything. The main thing i am afraid about is that one of my undersergents keeps noticing me doing wrong stuff weather its looking the wrong way or wearing the wrong kind of shoes its always him that catches me. And he has this bizzare expression on his face 24/7 he always looks feed up or just mad.& Yum a fellow solider just gave me candy&. Others complain more than others but i try my best to stay under the radar since thats the advice given to most people who come here.
Free time is almost up will post again soon keep reading!
Alokas Ilkka Ruso (alokas is my rank i think it means private)